Hello. :) To be honest, my life consists of just one thing currently: Stress. I simply have too much to do. But anyway I write, because I need brakes from working. Everyone needs it. And I also want to share some writings with you. I hope at least you're doing fine and have not that much stress.
As always: Enjoy reading! :)
The moon, the stars and myself
I'm sitting in silence watching the moon and the stars,
they feel so close while this earth feels so far
away,
in time somehow everyone left me, my heart,
alone, on the ground on the side of their boulevard,
but that's okay,
'cause it's braking me free, but also tears me apart,
when there's no one, but me, I feel so worthless, it hurts in my heart,
makes me bleed,
but it's also a kind of freedom I have never felt,
when no one cares then I can do what I've always wanted to make,
be who I wanna be.
I'm walking in silence beside the moon and the stars,
I talk to them and to me and I empty my heart,
finally and
people's voices slowly lose their meaning to me,
I've got nature and most importantly I've got me,
myself, finally again,
the chaos in my mind slowly goes away,
it is freed from memories and thoughts not worthy to save,
I creathe new space,
nobody knows where I am, me either,
but I know this path is going to make my demons weaker,
'cause they see that I can.
Maybe I'll come back when I found what I search
for peace, feeling home and esteeming my worth,
'til I found myself and I found out
that I can do anything on my own,
that I am the person I spend with my whole life,
when myself becomes a friend of me and I'm satisfied,
I'll come back when I found what I search
I'm coming back to you, but first I've to put myself first.
I close my eyes, I can't see the moon and the stars,
but somehow I feel them right in my heart,
on my side,
as the sun comes out of her absence, back from her trip,
I'm glad to see her, but she's nothing I particular missed
at night,
and I realize, I finally got to the point
when myself is what myself needs the most,
that's something I never thought of to seek,
but the most worthwhile and desirable thing, actually.