I let you see into
a shell of broken layers
because I thought that
no one has the power
to shatter what's long gone
and oh god
it felt so surreal
it ..
it felt like something
like a kind of
broken invincibility
now I sit on the bathroom floor
collapsing under the pressure
of my ribcage boring into my flesh
smothered by the thought, choking,
that I let you get too damn close
your echoing words are poison
and I'm slowly dying for nothing
as they are as empty as you feel
I handed you the key and
- I'll probably have to exchange the lock
for you to stop making me feel like
someone understood what I'm hiding
and for you to fucking leave.
I just wish that
mere dust and brick
will cover me
surround me
and put me back to sleep some night.