Today is a bad day,
Just another really, really bad day.
Here I am, sobbing, wishing to go back and change the past,
Because I failed.
And I disappointed them.
Just once more.
And I missed my aim.
Just another time.
Today is the day I lost my future,
Just another day on which I completely fucked it all up.
All the abilities that would have been necessary - I had them.
I could have done better, I should have succeeded, at least this time.
Could've, should've. Another empty scream in a universe of jaded possibilities,
Not heard, but lingering within me,
Giving me tears,
Denying my worth,
Letting me hate myself.
That's the thing about failing, I guess.
It only takes one moment,
Without concentration, strength or knowledge
And even though this unpleasant flash is over so, so fast,
One might suffer from the consequences forever.
One moment is enough to turn a life into an everlasting nightmare.