I never wanted to feel
completely locked up.
Like I would be
a book full of metaphors,
a smorgasbord of words -
no one could ever untangle
or make sense of
not even the writer
I never wanted to be like that
I swear
no secrets
no hiding
just a blunt exposure
of so many things
that I wish I could say
that I wish I could tell
that I wish I could be
but I'll never
And it doesn't matter
how much spilled ink there will be
how much of my guts I would put ontop
of every single page
how much pages I would rip out
just to
toss them onto the floor
infront of you. so you'll understand
I could expose anything I am
and everything I ever will be -
it will always feel like I'm the book you can't open
and even if you could, you'd never understand
the mere maze of words, mixed together
in a way that's not beatuiful,
not at all
it never will be
so you'll throw me away
like I never existed.
Continue with the easy ones
I wish I could, too
but I'll never