When I'm alone in the dark
It hits me in the stomach
Like a baseball bat.
When I go out and drink
I end up crying in the corner
Like the world was about to end.
When I get to the screen
All music is sad and all pictures are dark
And all seems empty.
When I get high
The rainbows are gone and the monsters they haunt me
Like a nightmare in daylight.
When I get the razor
The blood spill doesn't hurt, I don't feel relief
What has happened?
When I should go
I will be numb to joy and to pain
And nothing will remain.