Every time he looks at me
I feel this smooth feeling
this peace and silence
inside of me
at the same time
this hurricane tossing my
feelings around
I’m so indecisive
I wish I could be as
strong
as you are
for ignoring me
when I need the
most attention
>><<
I am so
weak
so weak
so weak
>><<
where the problem is?
the problem is that
i was too soon
too intensive attached
to him
i want his full attention
his full all
and he claimed
that he wants the same
yet he is there
ignoring my texts as if
i havent just said that
i dont wanna lose him
>><<
i dont even know why
im such a drama queen
its not that bad
nothing
im getting so bad
so mad
mad
mad
m
a
d
>><<
i told her
I DONT FEEL ANTHING FOR HIM IF I DO ITS NOT A LOT
and yet i think about
him
when waking up
when going to bed
when sitting in class
and he is there
somewhere
and yet so far
so far away
i long for him so bad
i long for only one
one fucking
touch
not more
fuck
fu
cck
>><<
i dont know what
you are doing to me
i cant be mad at you
not even for ten minutes
i swear you just have to
say one thing
one stupid little thing
and im forgetting about
everything
i dont know what
you are doing with me
to me
i dont know why
it affects me so much
stop
that
its killing me
its making me weak and
so so so longing
for everything you can give me
hell
yes you are the hell
and the heaven
and the good and bad
and all and nothing
i dont love you
no
but i would like
to have your hands all over me
and your eyes locked with mine
and a moment of silence and
only we,
two broken people,
are on a rooftop at 4am
looking at a beautiful sky
in summertime
>><<
i long you so
much
i wanna
puke
>><<
kill me
>><<
torture is a very soft
word for what
you are doing with
me
>><<
baby
i want to know what
is going on in your mind
give me a taste
of your thoughts
spread it all over my tongue
like honey
>><<
why are we like this
why
w
h
y
im so
so
done
but not with you
>><<
fuck.
>><<
it clicked between us
it clicked
i dont know if it was
the gun
or just us
but at least, it clicked
>><<
remember when we have seen
each other for the first time?
me neither
>><<
Info:
From now on even weirder poems are coming from a time where I was a bunch of confusion.