sometimes I feel like I'm drowning
in my own thoughts
but there is an ocean inside my head
I cannot escape from
sometimes I can hardly sleep
because I am thinking too much
about what I did wrong
two years ago
sometimes I lose interest
in friends and family
in school and hobbies
in simply everything
sometimes I can do nothing at all
not because I'm lazy
just because I can't
depression is holding me down
sometimes I cannot cope with stress
it is just so overwhelming
so exhausting
I want to escape
but I can't run away
sometimes I want to cry
I want to scream and shout
but I can't
all those feelings are locked inside me
not able to reach the surface
sometimes I am just empty inside
all my emotions are gone
they leave nothing behind
but silence
sometimes I don't know why I am still alive
sometimes more
and sometimes less