Can´t get myself out in the world
Can`t let anyone in
It`s hard to stay in touch,
when you know you don`t deserve their trust
It`s hard to belive and feels so obscure to me
Why would they think they like me
Can`t finde meaning in my own life
So stay far away from me in this timeline
True love feels so wrong to me
Like a made up story under a christmas tree
I think i never really felt love
To focused on my failure
I just like the idea of us
To far behind to help you
I really don`t deserve your trust
Tie me up on the backseat
You can try to hurt me
I`d recommend you just burn
and be done with me
I lost my face behhind this mask
Self-doubt, self-hate, mixed with an unhealthy self-love.
My head is full of dreamers.
But in my heart i serve their killers
I still hope for a Happy End
Would be nice to be gratefull once again
But i can`t figure myself out
What can i do?
I know deep down i feel sad
Worthless, alone, helpless, crazy and mad
I`m to confussed, angry and emotionally depressed
Hide my pain from the outside
Which slowly kills me on the inside
But till the day my hope will die
I keep on fighting and stay alive