How long do I dare to stand
next to my friend, my arms around him
like I wish for so deeply all the time
but never did cause someone
could spot me and not understand,
could call me a maniac, shame me
or fear my uncommon behavior
openly displayed in the public?
My thoughts swirl and make me shiver:
What if I will be caught?
What can I say, how redeem
my selfesteem? Will I blush,
will they blame me or something worse?
My friend is embracing and breathing all this,
he deeply understands, and that is my bliss!
Deep fear is creeping through me,
old stuff from childhood and grown up past
I don't have to hide me before the one
I came to know as a true friend
as he feels and doesn't judge
the one who cannot run from her past.
I love him deeply, cry my tears,
stepping back I can feel he is touched:
Honoring the will of the heart,
not sentencing the cluster of thoughts.
He comforts me and lets go
for really deep inside he knows
I have to walk my path and cannot grow
faster than the girl I once was.